It has happened before. Just a glimpse, not a prediction, a premonition, or a Deja Vu. Some tiny bit of information that the Lord will place in my mind for use at a later date to confirm His will.
It happened again. I am just so dissapointed that I didn't write it down. As it has been before, it started with a dream.The dream happened in the fall the year we moved into this house. (2 years ago.) It disturbed (not in a bad way) me and then stuck with me. Those are both typical ways the Lord shows me that it was from Him. Sometimes a dream is just a dream, but for me, the Lord uses dreams to speak to me. It is awesome! Why He would lower Himself to make sure I understand something is so far beyond what I can comprehend. He shows me once more that He will guide me if I will follow.
I dreamed that we had moved into our current house with the intention of adopting a bunch of kids. (So far that was accurate.) During the dream, we came across a homeless family and had them move in. They had been living under a road at the rail road tracks near our house. They had a home to go to, but they chose not to for some reason that I never knew. That was about it. There were a few things that disturbed me. 1. I knew that if we moved into this house and took in a homeless family, we would not be able to pursue adoption. 2. The road they had been sleeping under didn't have an "under," it was just a road in real life. My dream made it look like they were under the road, but I had to rationalize that I must have thought they were in a deep ditch or in a culvert.
When the dream stuck around my head for a while, I prayed. Asking God if he wanted me to change my plans for adoption. I told Him, "Lord, this is Your house. All I have is Yours, so if you want me to do something different, I will be happy to serve!" And, I meant it! I realized for the first time, that adoption might have been my plan and not His! So. I fasted and prayed and prayed some more. Finally , we were all settled into the house and I had to recognize that we were all still feeling a tug at our hearts for adoption. God had not taken that burden from us. Of course, I came to the natural conclusion that the dream must have just been a dream. Nothing special. It still bugged me and during every step of the adoption process, I asked God repeatedly if we are on the right path and felt like we were.
Two years go by. The dream was long forgotten. Construction grants are given and road work on every passable road near my home begins. The exciting part is that a very busy road near my home is getting an underpass right at a Rail Road crossing. Just. Exactly. Where. The. Dream. Showed. The dream was remembered with fondness, but nothing more since I have had prayers answered specifically over and over again about adoption and foster care. But, I couldn't help seeing that the road work is occurring
In walks our precious princess. She came to help me, but she needed us more. She needed a home. She has a home to go to. A great home with great people, but she needed us. She needs so much healing to happen in her life and God has sent her to us to be part of it. She comes in and we say "Stay." She stays and we say, "be a daughter." She will be moving in...right about the time when that underpass is completed.
Did the dream "predict the future?" NO. WAY! It was just a tool God used to show me that there would be a time when he would want our family and our home for something other than a traditional adoption. Something that would still serve Him...even though she had another place to go. I strongly believe that the image of the underpass was simply to show me that it was His Time. His Perfect Will and I get to be a part of it. He showed me so that I wouldn't miss it because He knew. He KNEW! I would miss it, I would doubt, I would second guess, I would question. HE KNEW because He MADE me. Why? Why would he treat me with kindness when I am so full of doubt and skepticism. Why? Because He already knew and He already forgave it.
For He chose us in Him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in His sight. In love, He predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with His pleasure and will - to the praise of His glorious grace, which He has freely given us in the One He loves. Ephesians 1:4-6
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