Mattie

What an awesome God we serve!  And, what a difference a day makes.  I realize that when I am focused on myself, my desires, my pain, all I see are those things.  If I am focused on the Lord, He gives me the gift of seeing beyond those things into His perfect will.  Those things are not taken from me, but they are made perfect in His plan.  How wonderful and special I must be for Him to work in my life like this.

I got to spend time with my little girl's daddy today.  He is such a nice person who loves his daughter beyond belief.  I was considering that God gifts us with the children in our lives, but never promises to give us the number of days we will spend with them.  We believe that we, as parents, should be the ones to go first, leaving our children to inherit the world.  But!  God has never made that promise.  God has given me the time with my tiny one as a gift to me for the time I have had her and even though it was short, it was a special time.  He has also given me the gift of presenting her to a loving father who wants her more than anything and loves her beyond measure.  It is so much easier to surrender her to a loving father than one who would not care for her as much as I do.   And that is where God showed His face to me again.  Isn't it wonderful that we are gifting our children back to the One Father who loves them beyond measure?  Beyond any love I could ever give?  Why God has blessed me so much in showing this to me is beyond what I can understand, but I am so thankful. 

She looked at me tonight with big round beautiful eyes.  Fully expecting a response from me.  Never doubting that I will meet every need.  She coos and smiles, completely helpless and trusting.  No possible way of surviving without my care and no way to love without my love, but always sure that I will be there.  I want to look at God just like that.  Never doubting. Never having the thought enter my mind that He won't be the provider.  My first love.

Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."  Matthew 19:14  (It is fitting that her name is Maddie - but I had changed the spelling to Mattie so that her name reflected Matthew!)