Angry

Jimmy Dean died. "I guess he shouldn't have eaten all of those sausages." Was the mean-spirited remark a friend made after hearing the news. That is what I thought until I heard: Jimmy Dean will be buried in a piano shaped Mausoleum over looking something I can't remember at a cost of $350,000! Now, I think, "...hope he enjoyed those sausages."

What cruel world takes the remains of a life on earth - nothing but flesh returning to the dust from which it came - and puts it in a $350,000 block of cement??? Am I the only one who is crazy frustrated with this? What if we took that same amount and used it to feed people who were hungry? 1,2,3...look, no one died of hunger because of that! 1,2,3...look, one more just died. Why? Because Jimmy Dean or his family, or whoever, needed to build something that has absolutely no use what-so-ever into the ground. Jimmy is still dead. There is no amount of money that will change God's plan of life on this earth. Don't bother trying.

I am frustrated with the amount of money spent to glorify our earthly life. Why do we need to have great smelling candles in our house when we can just cook up a yummy meal and enjoy the aroma that comes from that? Or maybe open our windows? I almost picked up a wonderful candle today at Target and thankfully came to my senses and put if back before I blew the $8 unnecessarily. (I am not picking on candles, I just happen to have had this happen today. There are plenty of other frivolous expenses that we don't even notice in our wealthy American life.) If only Jimmy would have had the chance to see.

Because: Now that I have see, I am responsible. It is my responsibility to love my neighbor as myself and I know that I don't want to...1,2,3...die of hunger.

His passion is so alive in my spirit right now and my worst fear is that I will loose it. I ask God daily, hourly, even more, to renew in me HIS passion. Revive my spirit. Create a clean heart! I pray that I can be part of serving him, in his time. Caring for those who need care. What a privilege it will be when He allows it to happen!

On a lighter note: God gave me another blessing today!!! I emailed a wonderful friend to ask about the cost of her addition. The cost was almost 1/2 of what I thought. The new numbers - including the adoption - are adding up to: You guessed it! $65,000! How great is our GOD! How funny is that? It even looks like it could be less!!!! (Possibly.) I just love how God works. He gives little encouragements along the way to remind us that He is always there. He will provide. I have no doubt.

God, you are an awesome God. You reign over Heaven and earth. With wisdom, power, and love. God You're an awesome God! Thank you so much for your bits of encouragement. Thank you for not turning away from me when I allow myself to be tripped while running this race. Thank you that it is Your hand that I reach for and rely on to help me get back on my feet. Thank you for keeping in front of me so that I have something to focus on, for staying beside me so that I have someone to lean on, and for following behind me, so that I won't be afraid. You are my rock and my strength. My hope lies only in You. Thank you LORD God! In Jesus' name for ever and ever. Amen